Hi, I am really infatuated with a guy that I work with, we have been together,ually, .?

We have been together ually and we really hit it off good together. I couldnt see him for about a month & a half and he told me he really missed me. I am married that is why I couldnt see him. I am torn between him and my husband, I want my hubby for the stability and the other guy for ually fun. Please help me dont just tell me what a bad person I am.