Am I confused or biual?

I often question whether I'm straight or not. I have had bfs in the past and I was happy with them, for the most part. Lately, I have started to become interested in females, in a ualy attracted way. I think I have a crush on a girl, who is a , but at the same time I also have a crush on a guy. I'm 19, and thoughts like this started coming to me when I was 14. There are some girls I could honestly say I would date...I really don't have many friends I could talk to about this, I'm afraid they will make fun of me or stop talking to me. Am I or just confused? I constantly hear from the gay community that s aren't real, and that they are just promiscuous, which makes the thought of talking to anyone about this, including my openly gay friends difficult.